When you’re reading scripture, does something jump out and you hear yourself say, Oh, Lord, please, let that not be me?
Philippians 2:19-21 ESV: I hope in the Lord Jesus to send Timothy to you soon, so that I too may be cheered by news of you. For I have no one like him, who will be genuinely concerned for your welfare. For they all seek their own interests, not those of Jesus Christ.
My reaction was, how sad to know that there are those who, in doing service are only seeking their own interests and not those of Jesus.
But, if we are honest with ourselves, how often are we guilty of that same thing? I do things in the name of Jesus because I believe that is what is required of me. But am I genuinely concerned about the welfare of those I might be offering service to because I know with all my heart that the welfare itself is the interest of Christ?
There are so many levels of Christ’s love that we uncover as we grow, as sanctification continues. It is good that I am obedient. It is good that I care about people. But is the love of Christ represented purely, with no self-serving happening in my own heart?
That’s something I have to be brutally honest about concerning myself. I am a studier. I am a thinker. I ponder. I meditate. I put things in motion, like putting pieces of puzzles together. But, is Ministry as I’ve labeled it really the heart of a ministry that pleases God?
Is the level of care, the level of love, a reflection of the care and love in which Jesus showers me? I hope so, and you can be sure that as I seek Him, that if there is lack I will ask for forgiveness, repent, and take the next step as He directs it. God knows who I am, He created me, all the idiosyncrasies that are me; and I have my share. He doesn’t expect me to react with the same emotions perhaps that other people do. But He does expect the realities of the relationship I have with Him be demonstrated based on my knowledge of His interests.
As I see it, these hard questions are meant to be directed at myself, not someone else. I trust the Lord touches the hearts and minds of His servants, and it is not my role to “fix” someone else. However, the testimonies of God’s working in our lives are meant to be shared. To glorify Him. To help someone through something. To release something inside of ourselves to free us to be more than what we could ever expect, but exactly what He has created us to be.
I desire to be genuinely concerned in all the Lord has me do with the interests of Jesus foremost on my heart. He is, after all, my everything.