Doing what I can

When we were all sheltering in place,  I shared with you that sheltering in place seemed to be my norm. For a combination of reasons, I haven’t been out of my apartment building (except to take out the trash, sit on the swing) since February. It is now June. Of course, I’m not alone in that, many didn’t get out for months. Some of it has been my choice. Some of it has not. That is life.

Some of the things I have no real control of at this point in my life dictates I stay at home. I’m okay with that. Knowing that if it continues for another four months, it won’t be okay ‘for’ me, and changes will have to happen. Again, that is life. But, for now, it remains an agreeable way of life.

When the trials of this world that bombard so many rises, I do what I can do to connect somehow, hoping to give people a moment of hope, or peace, or even a thought that jolts them out of a comfort zone. In the last few months especially, it has been here, and on social media, sharing what I can’t face to face, that have been my sources of connection. Maybe in the future, I’ll get back to my hope of beginning a video blog, but I’m not holding my breath on that one.

I’ve been doing research, and have about 65 pages of Biblical history on people of color, all colors, and it’s time to settle in and read through it all, pray about it, let the Holy Spirit guide me into what He expects me to do with the information.

It’s time also to reconnect with my rhythm of life that leads to productivity.  My fiction writing has been a little neglected, and I want to get back to that. Timing, focus, and mental fluidity however seem to be returning in a way that makes me smile. In pausing on many things the last couple of weeks, in listening to God and not just talking to God, in giving myself permission to do and not do things I had erroneously assigned myself as essential to being who I visualized myself being, I am content. Not complacent, but content in who I am, what I can do, and what I must do to be pleasing to God.

In my reading this morning the following verse jumped out at me. “But whoever hates his brother is in the darkness and walks in the darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes.” – 1 John 2:11 (ESV)

Don’t let your spirit become blinded by the darkness of the enemy. Continue to care; for yourself, for each other. The Light is there, for anyone who seeks it.

Blessings – Vicki

 

 

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