Weariness

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Sometimes we all get weary. Weary because of lack of sleep. Weary because of the demands on our lives. Weary because of health issues. Weary because of the heaviness we see in people as a result of sin in the world. We get weary, and we sigh and say, “even so, come quickly Lord Jesus.”

And He does, not the drawing us to him in the air coming, but the still small voice that encourages. The sense of presence His Spirit allows us to know. The answers to questions when we seek Him. The joy we find in unexpected blessings.

Sometimes just being given time to sit in silence and think, and plan, and not feel pressure to make a decision is a pathway out of weariness, as is all the other things I’ve listed.

There are so many things that can tie us in knots. Things that tie us, and then throw us deep into a miry pit. God can handle that, too.

There was a time, many years ago, when my life was as much a miry pit as it could be. For a long time, no one saw, but finally the affects of that pit began to show to those who saw the change in my behavior, the walls that I’d raised to protect me even years before, got thicker…thick enough imprison me. I continued in life with a mask that was not unkind to others, but neither was I approachable.

But, God. God saw, and when life got hard enough I doubted everything, God would send me to the Psalms. I’ve mentioned before how they comfort me. This is where that began. And, one day, after a terrible set of events that dug deep, even through my thick walls, were about to destroy the faith I fought so hard to hold on to, God whispered in that still small voice, “I know you don’t believe it, but I’ll keep telling you. I love you.”

You see, in my mind, he loved me because he was supposed to. I was his child, one of millions, therefore, no one special. I told people all the time how much God loved them, and I believed it, I just couldn’t claim those words as my truth. Not the kind of love I needed, that I saw others receive.

The enemy will do whatever it takes to bring a child of God down. Bit by bit, until faith is dangerously weak.

In a plea, a prayer that was merely “Help me”, things changed. I heard a man of God preach, a strong, hopeful sermon, and as I had heard so many times, the words “God loves you” were repeated in that message enough times that I walked away thinking it was a terrible joke for God to play on me. But way down deep in my soul, I still wanted to believe those words, so when I got home I asked the Lord to show me. No, I’ll be honest, it wasn’t quite that simple, or that nice. It was a rebellious, “so you keep saying, so show me, go ahead, show me.”

I opened my Bible to Psalms, reading here and there and and then the verses in Psalm 40 broke through the walls, left me almost sobbing, and then laughing in joy. I saw where I’d fallen short, truths that broke my heart but then opened it to so much more, the ability to recognize and know the truth of God’s love.

Whatever you are facing today, believe me, please, that no matter what chaos surrounds you, God loves you as a good and loving father loves a child. You. Believe Him. Draw near to Him. If you haven’t already done so, accept Jesus as your Lord, as your savior from sin that will throw you into an eternal life without Him.

If you have specific questions about salvation, find a good Bible believing, Bible teaching church and seek out a faithful, learned believer, a teacher, or a pastor. If you can’t get to a church for any reason, find a good online service. Do your homework. There are a lot of churches out there that are not Bible following churches. You are worth the effort needed to find the right place for God to fill you with His truth, how to recognize false claims, and to know beyond doubt that God loves you.

I’m going to post the Psalm that so influenced me, and led to the many years in ministry. Ministry that changed as God ordained, but the truth never left me. God Loves Me and God Loves You!

Psalm 40 ESV

I waited patiently for the Lord;
    he inclined to me and heard my cry.
 He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
    out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
    making my steps secure.
 He put a new song in my mouth,
    a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear,
    and put their trust in the Lord.

 Blessed is the man who makes
    the Lord his trust,
who does not turn to the proud,
    to those who go astray after a lie!
 You have multiplied, O Lord my God,
    your wondrous deeds and your thoughts toward us;
    none can compare with you!
I will proclaim and tell of them,
    yet they are more than can be told.

 In sacrifice and offering you have not delighted,
    but you have given me an open ear.[a]
Burnt offering and sin offering
    you have not required.
 Then I said, “Behold, I have come;
    in the scroll of the book it is written of me:
 I delight to do your will, O my God;
    your law is within my heart.”

 I have told the glad news of deliverance[b]
    in the great congregation;
behold, I have not restrained my lips,
    as you know, O Lord.
I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart;
    I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation;
I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness
    from the great congregation.

 As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain
    your mercy from me;
your steadfast love and your faithfulness will
    ever preserve me!
 For evils have encompassed me
    beyond number;
my iniquities have overtaken me,
    and I cannot see;
they are more than the hairs of my head;
    my heart fails me.

 Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me!
    O Lord, make haste to help me!
 Let those be put to shame and disappointed altogether
    who seek to snatch away my life;
let those be turned back and brought to dishonor
    who delight in my hurt!
 Let those be appalled because of their shame
    who say to me, “Aha, Aha!”

 But may all who seek you
    rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who love your salvation
    say continually, “Great is the Lord!”
 As for me, I am poor and needy,
    but the Lord takes thought for me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
    do not delay, O my God!

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